Have finally…


written something!

Yey!

It’s been a while, I’ve had a number of things going on.  This blog got neglected just because I was busy with so many other things and then, after a long absence my characters started talking to me again.

I’d put my main character into a coma.  I wasn’t even aware that I was going to do it but there she was lying on a hospital bed and….. then came the problem of how I did it, how was she going to recover, what was going to happen next…!

But then sitting down at the laptop I started plotting out the next chapter.  Once I started working it the words flowed, albeit slowly, on to the page.

So finally, Chapter 42 of my Rola story ‘Ghost Sight’ has been posted.

Who knows the way this is going I just might start on Chapter 43!

E’s are good…. E’s are good….


Day 498 of the A to Z challenge and here in the Big Blogging House  we’ve entered into the diary room….

Have you ever stopped to think about relevant things in your life and then tried to sort them out into alphabetical order?  Let me just say it’s hard.  My mind is a blank for E.  I was going to use the word ‘Everything’ and give a run down of everything I like to do however that doesn’t narrow it down so much.

So here.

E is for Ella.

Her name is Elizabeth Louise Laura Addison.

Her initials were printed on her camera strap when they first met leading Roman  to read them thinking that was her name. When they were finally introduced and she told him her name was Elizabeth it was too late, to him she’d always be his Ella.

I came up with that because I wanted my characters to share something special, he christened her with a name and actually seeing her as a separate entity to her parents, her brother, but also because I wanted to have her be recognisable.  In the sense that when you googled her real name she’d be near the top of the search.  It offered some shielding to her, some layers that prevented the reader from finding out too much in one go.

Ella first made an appearance in ‘The Lost Letter’, however her character and story arc have been extended with prequels and sequels (and more sequels).  In the lost letter we saw a glimpse of how she was when separate to Roman. A mother to her son, also called Roman.  The audience is left guessing as to whether the former Roman is the father of her child.

When Roman finds out he isn’t the father there is almost more disappointment than relief.  For Ella though, her son was part of the excuse she used not to track Roman down.

Ella is a complicated character to write.   She is extremely vulnerable whilst being strong enough to support her husband through his PTSD.   When she is attacked in ‘The Darkness’ by  Roman’s former comrade and the man who was responsible for her brothers death you see a breakdown in their relationship. They are both keeping secrets from one another and for a period of time you feel that they are doomed.

The follow up story to ‘The Darkness’ was originally  ‘Remembrance of Time’ moving forward in time over 4 years and where I gave Ella amnesia and then created this person she was seeing behind Roman’s back.  I barely touched upon the jealousy aspect before I inflicted  first a tragic loss and then illness on them.

I chose to skip that time period because I wanted to show an Ella that was recovered from what happened to her.  But it wasn’t long before I returned to those missing 4 years and started writing.  I’m very proud of this story despite it taking a lot not only to write but also a lot of time.   The story is  ‘Bound by Fear, Rescued by Love’.   We see what they’ve gone through in those four years and just what a toll the events in ‘The Darkness’ have had on them, especially Ella.

Ella is a strong person but to make her complete she needs Roman. When their relationship breaks down to the point that divorce seems their only option something brings them back together.

After ‘Remembrance of Time’ I came up with ‘Elliot’s Return’, once more bringing back a foe of Roman’s.  He’d  been in Summer Bay before nearly killing Nicole and Geoff before Roman stopped him. Now he was responsible for taking Ella and keeping her prisoner for six months.  When he finally revealed her to them she was pregnant and ill believing herself to be Elliot’s wife.  Within hours of meeting Roman their connection drew them together and she returned to him not knowing that was part of Elliot’s plan!

From there came ‘The Way Back’.  She removed herself from Roman’s life for three months needing to heal and believing that was the only way to save them both from any more plotting by Elliot. When she returned thinking that they had divorced in the process it is only a matter of time before their attraction returned.  Despite the plotting of their children (and half the population of Summer Bay) things were not as smooth running as my readers wanted and I kept them on/off for most of the story.

I haven’t mentioned ‘A Summer Bay Wedding’ for several reasons, one being that although you see them as new married couple the story focuses more on Nicole and Geoff.  (Nicole is Roman’s daughter by a previous partner).   The story slots in between ‘The Lost Letter’ and ‘The Darkness’.  I mention it now because having finally won Ella back they are in their own story entitled ‘A Summer Bay Wedding II’.

When I was writing it I did a lot of looking at wedding dresses as I wanted to describe the perfect one for Ella.   It’s been a number of years since I finished it and I still have no idea what her ideal dress was like.  But it’s okay, it wasn’t their first wedding and wouldn’t be their last!

After ‘A Summer Bay Wedding II’ came ‘Broken’, what could be better than spending a few thousand words getting them together if not splitting them up again.

If you read my post ‘D is for Dead’ you’d see that I have a problem killing characters, no such problem inflicting pain and misery on Ella and Roman though.

I thought this would be a short little summery of my main character but there is so much about her that I could write, stories not withstanding.  Her love for Roman is only matched by the love she has for her children and that includes  Roman’s daughter and foster son.  She has a career as a photographer but that has so often come second to everything it is only now that she is finding a balance between home, family, and work.

She had a close bond with Harry, her godfather, and Joe, a colleague of her fathers, to an extent that it could be seen she was trying to gain the fatherly approval she seemed to have missed out on as a child.  Instead a reconciliation with her father answers the very many questions that she had as a child regarding her mother’s treatment of her.

In Ella I explored what it felt like to be abused by your mother.  Parents are supposed to be care givers and when that trust is broken it makes it hard to trust anyone.  On occasion I’ve had Roman break her trust, there have been moments where I’ve had him display violence towards her as his PTSD is triggered.

It is interesting that when that happens it is Roman who is hurt more by it.   As a former soldier he has the training to kill her, however I wouldn’t describe it as an abusive relationship as he doesn’t use it as a control mechanism for a start and there are only three major incidents in  a twenty-year history.  (I know for some that would be three incidents too many).

Ella in fact, does her fair share of slapping him, not to mention her trademark poking him in the ribs.

I need to finish this now,  I’ve gone over 1000 words and I can see myself typing even more.  I’ve put Ella (and also Roman) through everything that you can think off and somehow they manage to remain my favourite characters.

For a glimpse of Ella there is story posted on this blog called ‘Debated Heart’.   For my other stories follow the links I’ve put at the side.